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May 26 Blog???Well..another year gone by, where does the time go? It seems like just yesterday I was wishing for my 19th birthday..now 19 seems so long ago!
Although I'm still close to that age, it kind of makes me nervous as to where my future is going...the last few years haven't really been all that productive! Maybe it's because another birthday has gone by and I'm no furthur ahead in life than last? Maybe I'm getting OLD!!! OK..wont push it that far!
At 23, life is not what I imagined it would be, nothing is really. I always pictured myself finishing school, having an amazing career, nice new house...etc.
I have now come to realize (after my dream was shattered!) that life NEVER works the way you plan it! I went in the complete opposite direction than I originally intended...and somehow lost myself in those few years. For some reason, everything in life seems more difficult to achieve now. Working around everyone elses busy schedule, and making sure everyone else is taken care of, really doesn't leave much time for me, or what I WANT to do with life...
Hopefully this year, things may change!
I'm so excited about starting college (in 14 more days!!) but am extremely nervous...and..well...scared s***less!! Can I do it? How will I find the time? How will the family adjust? Will I understand? ughhh...too many questions and not nearly enough answers!! But now is the time...I have to do it...no more putting things off and saying "another day"...time to get out of reverse and slam into drive! Who knows..maybe in another year I will be closer to what I want in life?
Anyway..enough of my blabbering in this pointless blog!
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