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August 02 I Want...I want someone to love me To stand by my side I want them to hold me Make me feel I’m alive I want to feel their passion Deep within my soul Throughout the years Until we grow old I want to be cuddled To feel safe and sound Never feel alone For love I have found I want to be kissed By their lips, so soft Romance never dies It just gets lost I want to see their smile Day after day To bring cheer to life Happiness to stay I want to show them How great life can be But first of all They need to love me…
**July 2009** July 31 **untitled**Is there more to life...
Then what I see?
Is there more to life..
More to me?
Something is missing...
A feeling is lost...
A hole in my heart...
Replaced by no cost...
Why haven't I found...
That missing piece?
My emotions adrift...
When will this cease?
I ponder through life...
Just merely exist...
Hoping change will come...
Before life I have missed...
'Tis not a good feeling...
To be alone...
In this journey called life...
Where certainty's unknown...
**July 2009**
July 29 Lost...In my life,
Confusion lies, Along with the tears, Swelled up in my eyes, Where do I go? Where should I turn? When will this stop? When will I learn? I want to live life, Touch the sky, Yet I sit here and write, As I cry, My heart is aching, Doesn't know what to decide, It's cold and brittle, But once was alive, Why is it that, This journey's so hard? Too many obstacles, My luck is charred, I want to succeed, I want to thrive, Shift out of reverse, And slam into drive, Put the past behind, Wipe the slate clean, Live every moment, As if it's a dream, The heart is where, The decision lies, I hope there's an answer, Before the dream dies.... **2009** May 26 Blog???Well..another year gone by, where does the time go? It seems like just yesterday I was wishing for my 19th birthday..now 19 seems so long ago!
Although I'm still close to that age, it kind of makes me nervous as to where my future is going...the last few years haven't really been all that productive! Maybe it's because another birthday has gone by and I'm no furthur ahead in life than last? Maybe I'm getting OLD!!! OK..wont push it that far!
At 23, life is not what I imagined it would be, nothing is really. I always pictured myself finishing school, having an amazing career, nice new house...etc.
I have now come to realize (after my dream was shattered!) that life NEVER works the way you plan it! I went in the complete opposite direction than I originally intended...and somehow lost myself in those few years. For some reason, everything in life seems more difficult to achieve now. Working around everyone elses busy schedule, and making sure everyone else is taken care of, really doesn't leave much time for me, or what I WANT to do with life...
Hopefully this year, things may change!
I'm so excited about starting college (in 14 more days!!) but am extremely nervous...and..well...scared s***less!! Can I do it? How will I find the time? How will the family adjust? Will I understand? ughhh...too many questions and not nearly enough answers!! But now is the time...I have to do it...no more putting things off and saying "another day"...time to get out of reverse and slam into drive! Who knows..maybe in another year I will be closer to what I want in life?
Anyway..enough of my blabbering in this pointless blog!
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